originally written on November 25, 2021
Starting a blog has been one of the New Year Resolution since 2019. Since a kid, I’ve always been that student who’s shy to raise his opinion in class. I think a lot of that has to do with self recognition and thinking everyone else knew the answer, but me. Although I’m much better compare to that teenager, I still wonder if this inadequacy is share by other people.
So what changed?
The first event that shine a light on the dusted to do item (I still have it on my 2020 and 2021 New Year Resolution) is the fact that I became a dad on the Christmas Eve of 2020. I became the father of a 2,650 gram girl. As the year goes by and as I watch my daughter tripple her weight, it gave me a bigger responsibility in life.
The second thing that struck me was taking the COVID-19 vaccine on September 15, 2021. COVID-19 induces a low, but unignorable, rate of death. A week before vaccination, I started randomly writting last words on scattered notes.
I am now 3 days in after my second vaccine. This process has got me thinking, what if I was gone tomorrow? What trace would I have left for my family? How will my daughter turn out without a slight memory of me?
It was at that moment that I have full clarity of my audience. I’m writing for my daughter to know about me.