Author: kelly huang

  • Resistance as a proxy

    I am guilty for narcissistically attaching the work I do with who I am. When things go well, my ego drives the motivation. When things doesn’t, I procrastinate and tries to hide it. I am not consistent.

    The War of Art redefined being professional and Resistance became the proxy.

    • It’s not a rejection. It’s Resistance reminding me to save face.
    • It’s not rejecting the person or idea. It’s Resistance saying my time is not valuable.
    • It’s not above my responsibility. It’s Resistance saying asking help is showing weakness.
    • It’s not a difficult project. It’s Resistance saying I am too smart to ask for help.
    • It’s not that there’s too much work to do so I need to sacrifice the time to write. It’s Resistance saying work is who I am, it’s my identity.

    Resistance is always in the middle between the person or task and my work. It always twist the message to stop me getting things done.

  • Involve before impress

    Less impressed, more involved. – Greenlights by Matthew McConaughey, location 1,446

    Here’s a mistake I made 2 weeks into my new job: too eager to apply previous skills and experiences. I wanted to impress, to replicate my turf on this new land.

    It didn’t work. This is selling solution without understanding the customer pain point.

    Slow down, get involved. Know the workflow and the bottleneck, start to help even with the small things.

    If the skill is valuable, then it will show. The effort will compound.

  • Framing the situation

    “Dad got scammed for NT$18,000,000.”

    That’s the reactive response to frame the situation, but it made scammer the bad guy. Doing so, we loose the opportunity to iterate for the next occurrence.

    Same goes, “Dad got greedy.” says himself.

    Acknowledge that it might appear again and scammers are professionals, we can frame it to rewires the action.

    1. Dad leveraged.
    2. Dad invested in something he doesn’t know.
  • The War of Art by Steven Pressfield

    Start date: October 18, 2025

    End date: October 29, 2025


    22

    There’s a secret that real writers know that wannabe writers don’t, and the secret is this: It’s not the writing part that’s hard. What’s hard is sitting down to write.

    46

    Fear doesn’t go away. The warrior and the artist live by the same code of necessity, which dictates that the battle must be fought anew every day.

    52

    The danger is greatest when the finish line is in sight.

    55

    The awakening artist must be ruthless, not only with herself but with others…The best and only thing that one artist can do for another is to serve as an example and an inspiration.

    58

    We don’t just put off our lives today; we put them off till our deathbed.

    60

    It knows it has distracted us with a cheap, easy fix and kept us from doing our work……principle applies to drugs, shopping, masturbation, TV, gossip, alcohol, and the consumption of all products containing fat, sugar, salt, or chocolate.

    73

    Maybe it’s easier to endow our partner with the power that we in fact possess but are afraid to act upon.

    76

    Resistance also told me I shouldn’t seek to instruct, or put myself forward as a purveyor of wisdom; that this was vain, egotistical, possibly even corrupt, and that it would work harm to me in the end. That scared me. It made a lot of sense.

    What finally convinced me to go ahead was simply that I was so unhappy not going ahead. I was developing symptoms. As soon as I sat down and began, I was okay.

    82

    These are not easy questions: Who am I? Why am I here?……We know what the clan is; we know how to fit into the band and the tribe. What we don’t know is how to be alone. We don’t know how to be free individuals.

    93

    Remember our rule of thumb: The more scared we are of a work or calling, the more sure we can be that we have to do it.

    94

    Resistance is experienced as fear; the degree of fear equates to the strength of Resistance.

    98

    The professional concentrates on the work and allows rewards to come or not come, whatever they like.

    102

    Friends sometimes ask, “Don’t you get lonely sitting by yourself all day?” At first it seemed odd to hear myself answer No. Then I realized that I was not alone; I was in the book; I was with the characters. I was with my Self.

    134

    What I feel and say and do that night will not be coming from any disowned or unresolved part of me, any part corrupted by Resistance.

    I go to sleep content, but my final thought is of Resistance. I will wake up with it tomorrow. Already I am steeling myself.

    139

    All of us pros in one are

    142

    The amateur, on the other hand, overidentifies with his avocation, his artistic aspiration…he is overly invested in its success and overterrified of its failure. The amateur takes it so seriously it paralyzes him.

    143

    How does he pursue his calling? One, he doesn’t show up every day. Two, he doesn’t show up no matter what. Three, he doesn’t stay on the job all day.

    147

    That was when I realized I had become a pro. I had not yet had a success. But I had had a real failure.

    150

    The more you love your art/calling/enterprise, the more important its accomplishment is to the evolution of your soul, the more you will fear it and the more Resistance you will experience facing it.

    153

    Resistance gets us to plunge into a project with an overambitious and unrealistic timetable for its completion. It knows we can’t sustain that level of intensity. We will hit the wall. We will crash.

    Note: the hit and crash reminds me

    159

    The sign of the amateur is overglorification of and preoccupation with the mystery. The professional shuts up. She doesn’t talk about it. She does her work.

    160

    The amateur believes he must first overcome his fear; then he can do his work. The professional knows that fear can never be overcome. He knows there is no such thing as a fearless warrior or a dread-free artist.

    178

    A professional schools herself to stand apart from her performance, even as she gives herself to it heart and soul…we have a right only to our labor, not to the fruits of our labor.

    192

    She knows she can only be a professional at one thing. She brings in other pros and treats them with respect.

    199

    YOU, INC……If we think of ourselves as a corporation, it gives us a healthy distance on ourselves.

    210

    The most important thing about art is to work. Nothing else matters except sitting down every day and trying.

    214

    I had one novel nine-tenths of the way through and another at ninety-nine hundredths before I threw them in the trash. I couldn’t finish em. I didn’t have the guts.

    219

    “Start the next one today.”

    236

    More than make it great, make it live.

    264

    The Ego is the part of the psyche that believes in material existence.

    284

    Our job in this lifetime is not to shape ourselves into some ideal image we ought to be, but to find out who we already are and become it.

    310

    Of any activity you do, ask yourself: If I were the last person on earth, would I still do it?

    321

    In the end the question can only be answered by action. Do it or don’t do it.

  • 能不能,轉身就遠行 by Cher

    Start date: November 2, 2025

    End date: November 5, 2025


    30

    開始明白夢想是什麼,就是找一種快樂又簡單的方式去生活…走在自己喜歡的路上

    57

    獨自旅行第一件事情,就是要學會跟自己做朋友

    72

    不要以為別人依賴著你,就非心不甘情不願付出不可,不要以為自己多厲害,非要改變別人的選擇不可,我們都是其他人路上的過客

    76

    我是一個人,卻也從未真正一個人,學著在陌生人群中歡笑,卻也明白那種笑容有種久違的陌生

    94

    流浪根本不需要學習,在路上自己就會為夢想找到出路

    128

    家也只是一個港口,不過是讓你可以停泊比較久的港口

    130

    在不同的港口間,找一個屬於自己的家

    184

    只要背起背包去認識陌生旅人,一樣可以從不同的旅人身上去了解世界

    201

    遇到不合適的旅伴就當是修行,好相處的旅伴就當作是天上掉下來的禮物

  • Greenlights by Matthew McConaughey

    Start date: July 4, 2025

    End date: July 13, 2025


    Yellow highlight | Location: 320

    She’s a woman that says “I’m gonna” before she can, “I would” before she could, and “I’ll be there” before she’s invited.

    Yellow highlight | Location: 1,091

    Life’s hard. Shit happens to us. We make shit happen. To me, it was inevitable that I was staying the entire year because I’d shaken on it. I’d made a voluntary obligation with myself that there was “no goin back.”

    Yellow highlight | Location: 1,446

    less impressed, more involved.

    Yellow highlight | Location: 1,792

    We have to prepare to have freedom. We have to do the work to then do the job. We have to prepare for the job so we can be free to do the work. Knowing my man does not mean I know Spanish.

    Yellow highlight | Location: 1,892

    We are performing in real time, where the approach is the destination, and there is no goal line because we are never finished.

    Yellow highlight | Location: 2,012

    while I was still finding my balance with it, I wasn’t self-assured enough to share it with anyone else, especially my own mother.

    Yellow highlight | Location: 2,610

    They are not trying to win arguments of right or wrong. They are trying to understand each other. That’s different.

    Yellow highlight | Location: 3,167

    I felt like I was making B’s in all five. By shutting down the production company and the music label, I eliminated two of my five commitments with plans to make A’s in the other three.

    Yellow highlight | Location: 3,249

    Those roles and stories I was looking for? The ones that would compete with the life I was livin? They weren’t coming my way, and again, I wasn’t sleeping well with the ones that were. It was time to make a change, to pivot, to make a new commitment.

    Yellow highlight | Location: 3,527

    We made Dallas Buyers Club for 4.9 million dollars in twenty-five days. We did not ask permission. We did not flinch. We took the hill. I got down to 135.

    Yellow highlight | Location: 3,556

    “Afraid of what?” “…Of losing myself,” I said.

    Yellow highlight | Location: 3,678

    I loved performing. I loved creating. I loved getting lost in a character, then found.

    Yellow highlight | Location: 3,773

    I haven’t made all A’s in the art of livin, but I give a damn, and I’ll take an experienced C over an ignorant A any day.

  • Attention dilemma of NBD

    This is my second time in a NBD, new business development unit. Both struggled. They’re different companies, but some patterns remain.

    • NBD of billion dollar corporation.
    • Highly anticipated by the corp office.
    • Heavy expansion on engineer headcount.
    • Product oriented, usually to satisfy a couple of potential key accounts.
    • Relies on existing channels of the corporation, ranging from ODM to distribution model.

    The dilemma is about face. The face between corporate expectation and doing the dirty job of knocking door-to-door. From my two experiences, the fragmented and laborious works don’t look well compared to the logos and TAM of key accounts. How could it? It must rise just as the sibling business units.

    Meanwhile, engineer recruitment and corp investment continuous to snowball. Sunk cost fallacy kicks in. I have yet to see it’s final destiny, but it will not die nor will it prosper in 3 to 5 years.

  • My cookie jar

    I have forgotten where I got this idea. But decade before I read about David Goggins cookie jar method, I have been collecting feedbacks. They live in the Accomplishments and Insults folder.

    Feel defeated? Scroll the Accomplishments folder.

    Not feeling to exercise? Scroll the Insults folder.

    It’s a good reminder on what I’m capable of and who I can prove wrong.

    Accomplishments folder
    Insults foler
  • Fun money (update)

    I decided to change the way to allocate fun money, from once a year to once a month.

    Screenshot
    • Original: split the difference after hitting the annual savings goal.
    • New: allocate 5% of each regular income cycle and 50% – 60% of irregular income cycle.

    Problem of fun money with “leftover” from annual savings:

    1. Unable to forecast how much will be received, no clear goal.
    2. Long wait time, easily side tracked by impulsive spending

    With allocating in each income cycle, the purpose is to act as a reminder to refocus whatever the purchase is. There’s a goal to save towards to and cycles to evaluate the expense.

    Reminder for each regular income cycle
  • Fill in your identity here

    Yellow highlight from page 219, Can’t Hurt Me by David Goggins.

    • You will be made fun of.
    • You will feel insecure.
    • You may not be the best all the time.
    • You may be the only black, white, Asian, Latino, female, male, gay, lesbian or [fill in your identity here] in a given situation.
    • There will be times when you feel alone.

    Filling in my identity after rejections on documentation management system implementation. Product Marketing: this would disrupt the workflow; IT: Sharepoint is USD$ 2,000 per terabyte, no budget.

    • [only PMM with the least resource but 2 business units to serve]
    • [only one person but doing the work that even four couldn’t done well]
    • [only one person but needs to test product, shootout, position product, building value proposition; a job of 3 teams]
    • [doing DMS that my colleagues doesn’t give a shit and maybe even tries to stop it]
    • [a product marketer who needs to be responsible for DMS design]

    Okay. Time to get back to work.